I have a serious fear of vomiting and I don't know why. And the longer I go without vomiting, the more intense the fear becomes. Because it's bound to happen eventually.
Because of this paranoia, I have become slightly nervous around dairy products, poultry, and fast food. To name a few.
When Hubs and I were on our road trip in October, we stopped at a McDonalds along the way from Niagara Falls to D.C. This McDonalds was in the middle of nowhere. And it was frequented by... okay, I'm just going to say it... Rednecks. Hubs and I didn't even chat during our meal for all the people watching. (That or because we were sick of each other by this point.)
Well, I thank God for the rednecks at that McDonalds. If not for them, my entire meal would have revolved around one persistent thought.
What if this makes me sick?
I realize this admission makes me a bit of a freak, but every time I eat at a fast food joint (or any place that's in the middle of nowhere and might not be supplied with fresh food as often as I would like), that is the thought that haunts me. Because I have no control. How was the food cooked? Was it cooked thoroughly? What if this has been sitting out all day? What if, what if, what if?
When I cook chicken at home, I intentionally cook it 10 minutes too long. And even then, no matter how much I try to enjoy my slightly dry food, I'm still thinking about the "what if" factor.
A couple of nights ago I threw away a container of shredded cheddar cheese because it looked like it might, possibly, be moldy and I couldn't tell if it actually was. I wasn't about to risk it.
Thankfully, these fears don't rule my life. The rational side of my brain almost always wins out over the irrational side. Almost.
Tuesday, February 5
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I'm not going to say anything that I think is funny because it's going to be interpreted as mean. This is going to be a newer, sweeter, gentler Attorney.
I'm so sorry that you go through that. I didn't know you were so sensitive to food. You didn't throw up (except on car drives) when you were a kid. I hope that it goes away some day.
I don't think I have vomited since 1986 or 1987. The last time I vomited was when we made a big batch of beans and all of us got the flu. It wasn't the beans. It was the flu, but we had all just eaten a bunch of the beans and I was heaving beans for several hours. All of us were, including Teeter and OCD.
Or it might have been around the same time when I accidentally picked up Travis' Desitin, thinking it was toothpaste, and I brushed my teeth with it. I was dry-heaving into the toilet becauses I hadn't had breakfast yet.
I'm not afraid to throw up, but I absolutely don't like to throw up.
Hello, Steph. This is Paulina. You are not the only one who has such a fear of vommitting. Honestly I have this fear as well and as I was reading your blog I couldn't help but laugh because you are so much like I am. I always check the expiration dates on all the foods I have, especially dairy products. Even if it isn't past due, I usually sniff the milk or ask my dad to do so because I fear it being sour. Not only am I scared of myself throwing up but I am also scared of seeing others or hearing others doing it as well. I am not as bad as I used to be. There was a point where I couldn't even watch it on TV or hear other people make the simple noises of it. I haven't thrown up since I was about 7 or 8 years old.
I am happy to know I am not the only freak out there. Just thought I'd let you know you aren't either. :)
"newer, sweeter, gentler Attorney"??? Who is this really??? And thanks for the beans story. That didn't make me want to puke at all.
Paulina, we are so much alike. I can't handle hearing or seeing anyone vomit either. It makes me feel like I'm going to. No, you are definitely not the only freak out there.
I think it's kind of interesting that I married a man whose only daughter has the same "issues" that my daughter has. Hmmm.
Mom, I don't think that that was hard to do considering you have 5 kids.
OCD- All I have to say is "Me too." Although, I don't think that mine is as big a fear as yours.
I through away meat if I think it might possibly, in any way shape or form, look or smell a tiny bit funny. The same with all dairy products.
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