She Broke My Heart

Ok, so I was playing my childish game, Neopets. I've had an account since I was 8 years old, that's like 6 years! And that's a long time for me, because you know, it's almost half my life currently. I just started playing the game again a few weeks ago after not playing for a year or more. I was online today and I saw someone who I used to talk to over the Internet when I was 8. I think it was her first time playing after not playing for 2 years or something like that, so I decided to "neo-mail" her and see if she remembered me.

She does remember me. I'm actually happy that she does because when I was 8, I really looked up to her because she was a "cool teenager" in my opinion (she was 14 at the time). So we talked for about 10 minutes about just.. I don't know, we talked about how we don't remember what we used to talk about, how old we are now, blah blah blah. I wasn't really sure if she even wanted to talk to me though. I wanted to talk to her, but I would be ok if she stopped talking to me because she might have been bored with the conversation or something. I wouldn't blame her though, because it was sorta like talking to a stranger since we don't remember what we used to talk about.

Boy, was I wrong. She suddenly just didn't reply to me, and I was devastated. Ok, not devastated, but I was quite sad. Actually, I still am quite sad because this all took place about 30 minutes ago. Why am I sad if I said it was like talking to a stranger? Well, because I thought she was so cool when I was younger! She was a big part of my young life. I mean.. I don't know how to explain it. She was one of the first people I even talked to over the Internet. She was older than me, and I remember that I did enjoy talking to her. Ok, to sum it all up because I feel like I'm confusing myself here, so I must be confusing whoever is reading this, (Jeez, do I use a lot of commas??) I REALLY looked up to her. And the childish part of my brain STILL looks up to her for some reason. And when she didn't reply to me (I'll admit it, I kept refreshing the page hoping she would. But after 10 minutes I knew it was over) it was like a smack in the face! It was like "I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore, you loser!"

I know I'm being childish here, and that maybe she just went to get some food or decided to watch TV.... Or absolutely hates me. Whatever. I'm over it...

Really.. I'm over it.....

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