Holy crap. High school.I never really thought about high school until now, we had to go to the high school and be introduced to the.. "fun" stuff there. So my friend and I walk up to the entrance of the high school for the first time and we see tons of high schoolers and new freshmen, like us. I saw.. big people. Big people that I would be going to school with next year. That's when reality hit me. I'm not as much as a kid as I think I am.
I think of myself as that little 6th grader still in elementary school. Or at least, that's what I did think of myself. Now I see that next year I'll be in 9th grade. Just looking at the words "9th Grade" make me feel... old. As in, teenage old. Or something like that. But it's just scary and exciting to know that just about 4 more years of school and I'll be off to college. Which means that I'm like.. an adult? Well, almost. But looking at the responsibility in front of me makes me feel sentimental already. I wish that in the past years of my life (middle school, elementary school) that I took the time to stop and enjoy it more. If I really know what was ahead of me when I was in 6th grade, I would have stopped to appreciate the (almost) stress-free life I had then. I just wish the "good old years" didn't have to go by so fast. Why couldn't I ever stop to realize just how much fun being a kid is?
2 comments:
I think you show a lot of wisdom for your age. It's interesting that people usually feel how you do about taking more time to enjoy things, but at an older age.
Let me tell you, and I'm not going to be original here: "Life is what happens when you are making other plans."
You will always feel this way, that somehow, you were stressing out over fulfilling your goals or plans and not enjoying life while you were living it.
Truth is, you ARE enjoying life as you live it. Life is a combination of the past, the present, and the future.
We are constantly making goals and working towards them, thinking about the memories and/or mistakes of the past, and living day to day.
Once in a while, we get the opportunity to take a "mini-vacation", such as we did when we went to the beach this past Friday and barbequed hot dogs with T, OCD, Brandon, Grandma, and the kids.
THAT is when you "stop and smell the flowers."
We take mini-breaks from the day-to-day stresses of working towards our goals to be with family and friends, so that we can take a mental vacation and escape from the realities of life. Those are the moments to live for.
Take my word for it. You are enjoying your life, even if it seems like you are stressing and working and focusing on your goals and where you are going to end up.
You will be able to look back on all that you are working on and feel a sense of pride and fulfillment and satisfaction that you accomplished all that you accomplished, even though right now you feel like you are stressed out by it all.
Our success in life is a result of the hard work, the stress, the unknowns, and the good/bad experiences along the way.
Don't tell mom, but she's right. (I NEVER said that!!)
When you do need a total break, you are always welcome to come here for a weekend or something. If you call, I will find a way to get you here if you need it.
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